Wednesday, January 10, 2007

listening to : Wo Hen Xiang Ai Ta by Twins

many things happened, many events happening after one another, i guess im just too lazy to write all about it. These few daes, im really down. i dont know whether its because im weak or because of the stress im undergoing now.

i realise something strange it really happening to me. Everydae when i come home after a whole dae of fun and laughter, i sit down and i start to feel lousy. its so contradicting because i did have fun, i was really enjoying myself, i wasn't pretending to be happy. but once i settle down, my heart seems to start crying.

perhaps the reality of life keeps hitting me in the head. im so sick of facing pretentious and shallow people. i caught a glimpse of what the outside world is like, im not sure if that's where i wanna work, be all my life. school is onli 10% of what is it out there. i know its to early to think about this but its really bothering me as people have been telling me about their regrets.

im afraid. im not strong. everyone keeps telling me to be strong, to be positive, but hey can being positive realli hide the fact that LIFE IS SAD?

Because Life is. we can try all ways to smile and think that life is great, tell ourselves, "it's just how you see it lah"
BUT, that cannot hide the ugliness of reality can it?

AH, what the point of me saying all these because i know i need to get back to life after typing this entry.

im just sad that im not enjoying life at the moment. Life's good when you are young.

oh wells, i miss my old daes.