Thursday, March 01, 2007

listening to : Ni Bu Zai

when it always come to blogging, i dunno how to start.
deprived of sleep. as usual.

it wont be making sense if i not and being like one. i aint a sticky person and i cant stand stickyness. neither do i like sweet talking. just let things go as it is. im just stationary. things just went too fast. its irritating when frens around get included too. im afraid of disturbing them. im aware of things thats going on even without mentioning. having late night calls with anyone is a dread now. i do get sick and tired of routines. it deprives me of sleep. and the next dae i become a walking zombie. and the cycle continues. its not tat im cheating or anything. i just want back more of my normal life. back to frens and clique and a little fun. im not avoiding or running away from everything. its just back to reality and setting priorities right. i have been busy with things around as it is. its just hectic.

im just taking step by step at a time and i dun even expect much from myself. whie move on so fast. there's still so much time. love is also not measured by monetary terms. im not a materialistic person or what. its not spending more and i love you more. things would still be the same. its the thought that counts. sometimes trying far too hard might not work too. couse it comes naturally, you noe.

i hope you realli understand that i don like sticky-ness and i dun like revolving around 1 person everydae. i like the freedom around and not the routine. thinking, i dun noe if this love yet. but i can say its like. love is too serious word for me to use on anyone now.

i dunno whie im blogging this todae but i just had to. sorry if i spoilt the mood but i wanted to get it off asap.

=)) my childcare job starts later with ivan and weilun. mygod-_-" ivan told me tat i have to play games with those kids-_-" and i realli cant wait for tml when all my poly fren offically start holidae and my date with perrine. oh pls. tml faster come